Mourning time, but not all about being sad.

Yes, in the past; recent weeks, Singapore suffered a great loss, not only in the Commonwealth games; But the country's Great Woman, the Pillar behind the Man who Made A Country; for me and numerous others to live in. I hear so many people speaking of her death.

One negative source of information!They simply think about her passing away as a sad situation.

However, I did some research and found that she had been immoble since 2008. Therefore, I find that she passing away is somewhat a 'release from the agony'.

I rather remember these great people's lives and not the information on their DEATHS. I rather hear, or think about them ; on what they did when they were alive and well. I believe in doing things while I'm still ALIVE.

I believe in LIFE, NOT DEATH

I cannot totally follow the steps of a 'successful person(s)'

Sometimes; sometimes, sometimes...

Things in life is everchanging, how is a 'below average' person, with regards to the Academic results of my struggle in education, cope with the 'obstacles' of success. Especially, I hate to be pushed around, without any incentives to keep me smiling at what I am doing! The sun gets hotter, we live like MARTIANS!

How I wish a real angel will descend upon earth and save me; as I survived cancer to smile, not frown! I may not understand 'selfishness' now, but I may understand SMILING; someday.

How do I know?

Every him or her needs some love. But how?


Recently, I wanted to live with kindness, but realized that the kindness was

overused and abused. Sad, recover and smile again...

In the end... It is all about money, and the need is killing me!

Is everything all about profitability?

Not really, as I noticed, only trust can make thebuyer go on with the purchase.

For me, to keep myself out of the stressful, boring and V. Tough; killer 'rat race', I rather watch gaming broadcasts or even play some computer games to release the stress!



But, I sincerely, truthfully and proudly support thr phrase, 'Laughter is the Best Medicine'.

Too many things come into my life, demanding attention, I can only do 'so much', recently, my kind, naive and blind loyalty almost landed me into a big problem.

Even after the 'getaway' was successful, I still feel sad that help from me is sometimes misused, as an opportunity to Control me.

Well, smile, as we must carry on the journey in finding, and if you're sniling;

STUMBLE ON HAPPINESS!

A good speech, as the speaker has INTEGRITY

So many times I had to go through depression, yet, I live.

Thank your environment. I was born in a country that made things possible. And thank your family, your supporters and your TRUE friends.

I keep my view ahead, hungry, and foolish...

Like the Laws in Simpleology, keep trying, as nobody knows what comes tomorrow.

HIT THE TARGET AGIN AND AGAIN, till it 'gives in'

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UF8uR6Z6KLc

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What makes the world BETTER!

Better I mean: is the world I like, my world, where everything works according to my 'COMMAND'

Actually, I have to admit, I hate being pushed about and having to say yes to a person I want to put a bullet into his or her head.

So, I put the bullets into the enemy by solving, my problems of disgust. Gaming is also an alternative to kill THIS ENEMY! And look cool...

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Health is the way to get wealth, NOT RICH; in material

I heard of many people all telling me their peers along the roads, on the streets, even on the newspapers. I can only conclude that most people all want that C, C for CASH!

But, no wealth, without health! This is a fact.

I found out the problem with my 'instant cash' friends. They always took the smaller details for granted.

• Their home apartment is not neat 
• Their mindsets are wrong
• They are quite 'close minded'
• They do not listen, but they talk about everything under the SUN
• They have no faith, yet they preach

When the environment is in a mess, it WILL affect the individual, in a 'spillover' effect. So, I cannot win it, so I try my best to avoid it!

Lesser 'spillover damage', lesser illness in health.

I feel better when I make the effort to change; FOR THE BETTER!

Well,well well...

I smelt something burning from my window, so the basic instinct kicked in, I looked around my home apartment for anything 'charred or in flames'.

The panic I had was all a false alarm, it was my neighbors, simply lighting up their 'charcoal, in the BBQ PIT'

See, my fearful mindset made a fool of me, and I had made such a worthless, irrational, and ignorant effort to sniff around my home like a Dog looking for the bone. I am sure that is one problem I have to solve before even moving on.

Yep, I have to smile at the mirror and laugh at my 'silly' self...

Better get some MP3s before I go REALLY SILLY!: http://www.4shared.com/

The Sneak Preview?

It is like a secret being revealed... and the exclusive piece of information, is yours! Like an 'Early bird' offer.

In survival of cancer, a person's faith is NOT an Early bird promo situation. To 'SURRENDER' to your God, is a way to fear less, and move forward towards something, somewhere, and somehow 'not worry' about the result.

In addition, to lower the expectations, it will lessen the pain and disappointments at the end.

And believe it or not, SOMEHOW THE RESULT WILL BECOME ACCEPTABLE!

That's how to live on, with what we have, and built on it, do not do too much to regain that old glory as

IT MAY BE TIME FOR SOMETHING NEW!

God and the Spider

God and The Spider

I read this story, and felt that the call I received from an employer gave me hope that I can still work- Full time! Despite the number of hurdles I had to get pass, verbal assaults and some embarrassments I had to endure.

The sun is glaring today afternoon, warm, and I am perspiring as I type. But, I know something is helping me! And 'Tada', I spot my fan! So, think about the good things, and live WELL!

What seem small and useless is actually significant. Learn to appreciate it!

Take A CLOSER Look!

I am going back in time to seek my soul

I have made a milestone! Despite the fact that I am an underachiever, my brother told me, "Hey brother, you made it so far, remember where you were 'during those days'..."

Yep, he made me see something in my brain I never even considered; the 'holy grail' that contains information on my life.

I pat my own back, and 'pushed' my tired, unwilling to type; body to GO on!

LOOKS LIKE I HAVE TO ACCEPT IT

I saw a comment: "the sea is much deeper and wide than a river, but even so it doesn't scare me..."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LQM2-P3nFMY

I stare up into the sky, he will not hate you.

I  get flattened by 'powerful people, as they are the big boys.

And the only thought that calms me from the stresses of simple work is the clouds; up in my sky! Verbal assaults are launched against me as I am 'small'. So, I'd rather work on the part time basis, to lessen THE BURDEN! And to live with more MY time.

After all, the powerful political office players; candidates, are unaware that life is like a 'BOX OF CHOCOLATES', so, why hurt others? Better for me to help my brother than be amidst the storm...

Look at the sky; HE WILL NOT MAKE YOU FEEL BAD! 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vbg7YoXiKn0

I overheard about these alternative JOBS!

Some say working 8.30am or 9.00am,  to 5.00pm or 6.00pm is one tiring thing. Well, I tried, so here is the reality; I got 'politically' shoved around, commanded and made a 'scapegoat'.

I thought life was like in themovies initially, well, NO!

So, I wanted OUT. And one evening as I dragged my feet home, thinking of the next day, I heard from a group of people, discussing on 'contracts'. I was helpless, and decided to hear anything... as I felt freedom!

They talked about motivation, and various needs, people like me need! I then,

BECAME VERY INTERESTED IN LEARNING FROM THESE SOLO PROFESSIONALS!

I read about something I found useful; to share!

The 'formula' related to the way the 'violent' adolescents act, and 'problematic' kids, are all related to the teaching and model of their parents! Hmm... I have a negative parent, and the other an optimistic, opportunity seeing parent!

See, the simple atricle I read told me that the feeling of weakness can be controlled! So, I went the way leading me to optimism.

Thank God I did as I knew I had to rebuild everything from the 'start'.

• Think of happy memories, your achievements in life!
• Be appreciative of the environment
• Acknowledge that there is support for you, even if you cannot see it!

I had one thought in mind, as I watched the clip on Nick Vujicic, and

I know that I can do something for myself; STILL! (YOU, YOU, AND YOU ALL MUST Survive TOO!)

Faith is more powerful than belief?!

My belief, gave me relief

I remembered the days I fought against tremendous pain to stay alive. But there were worries by people ‘around me’, who cringe when they saw dosages of pain killers; morphine injected into me to keep me sane.
I will not say that I did not depend on ‘medical drugs’ to survive the pain, but I must emphasize the Faith I had in the surgeon and my God, which gave me the ‘simplest course of action to take!
I thought, nothing to leave behind, nothing I left behind, so,  “let’s ’surrender’ and smile that there are people crying for me, and doing everything they can to save me.”
So, you just relax, and let God do the rest.

There are people out there, to save you. It is the ‘matter of when, and not why’.

So be nice to others, we do not know who will save us!

What is life for; is it worth living; on? Hmm, try...

There is the 'try' thing that motivators told me not to tell myself to try; but go do the something, with the "will do it' in my mind.

I was told before, live, believe in life, not death!

So, I simply popped the question to the person, attempting to give me some strength to 'breathe': What is all worth? Living on will only make me feel worse when I realize the loss of my healthy, athletic and 'vibrant' social life!

Well, the answer was simple, but powerful.

My brother told me gently, my parents love me. And many others too, so be strong.

Today, I look up the sky, god is looking at me, your god is looking at you too!

So, live; well!

A formula that makes sense!

The solution to a problem  ->
Triggers emotion ->
Triggers thoughts ->

(resulting in:)->

Reaction (response)

This could be why negative people simply DO THEIR BEST TO AVOID, while the positive people think of such obstacles as a leeson to learn from!

EASIER SAID THAN DONE, I confess, I am still learning!

It is late, but not impossible, YET!

I often 'postponed' urgent activities in the past. Therefore the events that resulte from this neglect has lft me with a huge workload, many frustrating and burdening in the sense of perception as I was a person who was; lazy. A procrastinator!

The resultant effect is the failure in time management, planning in lifestyle, family and the simplest of relationships.

Now the focus is on you, where you have to avoid the mistakes I made and prevent the resultant backlashes that will definitely become an obstacle in your life, career and any form of relationships.

BETTER LATE THAN NEVER

Not just Law of Attraction itself.

Many more ‘sub points; in each subheading’

I thought that the Law of attraction was the whole ‘secret to success’ itself. However, I ‘dug ‘deeper only to realize it is like the desktop wallpaper! There is more than just THAT.


Like the Law of the Straight Lines: Getting to targets the ‘fastest way, rather than letting noise distract or make the route; a curved one’.

I am at the working age now, like the 'young impulsive perception' initially, I wanted instant gratification, so I had expectations more than thoughts of earning a future. I admit that I was a naïve student, with the wrong mindset and wrong; ATTITUDE.

So, I am going to tell you, what not to do! Like me.

You, must not…

• Think of everything as a one hundred percent success
• Do things that seem totally correct; to you, not others.
• Keep a close minded mindset, instead, listen to your peer’s advice!
• Do not go out of your comfort zone without doing thorough research on the activity you will be doing!

In short, do things rationally. NOT LIKE ME, RASH-LY!

The Law of Attraction is not all like becoming a magnet for money and other luxury!

Learn to live, not live for nothing!

Survival depends on an ULTIMATE medicine

 "A cheerful heart is medicine. but a broken spirit saps a person's strength."

-quoted from Proverbs

In fact, to smile and learn to talk well, gives me the confidence to smile, as I do not need to fear Speaking to anyone. However, learn their 'language and culture' though.

If you are planning on the future, do not be obstructed by the 'barriers to entry' into the 'market' which contains the DREAM you wanted. Negative people who gossip about others, make a conversation out of complaints are just too sad; and may drag YOU down, so, be nice, and 'slowly slip away from bad habits.'

And, spread the SMILES!

Live and tomorrow your chance will come

I knew that being badly affected by cancer will make me unemployable, as I was 'black-marked' as a KIA soldier that once served the Nation in National Service.

I was loyal, but my spirit, became more 'Self -centred' as I began to know that the 'concrete jungle' out there is all about hierarchy and knowledge on the job, not what you personally know.

It is very depressing, so I fell into a period of depression, initially. And fell ill, to make things worse! So, I could not even attend church services, neither go out of the house, nor my room!

But, I know that a decision must be made, 'to give up? or not?

Then did what I needed to do, LEARN A SKILL, differentiated from the majority; due to my UNIQUE Medical History! My God sent me to learn!

http://www.hightrustspeaking.com/blog/

When will you feel okay?

This link; is the link to see why people like me want to live on, and have the discipline to get a routine for diet or even housework!

It is NEVER Too Late to SMILE.

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gc4HGQHgeFE

That's why I even learnt to Speak; despite the odds against me.

I KNEW I COULD LEARN TO DO SOMETHING, different.

http://www.hightrustspeaking.com/blog/

Motivational training! To live on...

I was told to do something in my life! Take action, and not just make plans without implementation!


I look unusual now, as I started my ‘disciplinary lifestyle’, by:

• Eating healthily, and not testing my ‘luck’ on my allergy; to raw food.
• Consuming LESS fried or ‘rich’ food, but vegetables, and some needed nutritious vitamins.
• Drank health drinks like Tupperware: BerryGen, as it contains berries; which contained nutrients I needed!

I trained my skeletal body up from ‘skin and bone’, by:

• Sweeping; mopping the floor of my home, and doing house chores.
• Walk around, go out of the house; to meet friends and to exercise
• Avoid unnecessary ‘challenges’ like ego related ones, as I am recovering, not striving!

Be humble, as the only victory I desired is to beat my ‘illness; spillover effect!’

And I learnt how to speak, to rebuild my life. So I needed help! I got it from HIM!!!!!
http://www.hightrustspeaking.com/

What made people think, like him?

Yes,yes, yes... god is there when you did something, and seemingly cannot finish,  due to your limitations.

God gave me some hope and some help; to carry on.

I am not forgotten!

Today, an upcoming business development expert spoke to me like a friend!



He, Mr Koh Seng Choon; who I met a few months ago, called upon me to work for him! I'd rather work for friends, family and anybody who knew me somehow.

I was asked about some background information; concerning me, when we met the first time. As a person like me, who can only hope, and not demand, I told him, "I am a cancer survivor."

Not bad;
when I thought the society is leaving me behind, some special people come to my aid!

Believe me, hope is there, just reach out to it.

Tiring, dreaded, but not giving up!

Here's the fact, too many things in life is influenced by peer pressure.

I find that people have problems believing in anything, they had not tried, seen or heard of before.


Mostly, people like to belittle others.

I feel that everybody can do something else, anything; 'BETTER' they in this world. Not to simply make big money without regards of what they have done to the future of the community or the world.

They must have forgotten the phrase: The "spillover effect".

So, I took the challenge to make them stop it. I look above average, and nobody knows I was so close to death before.

I will never stop learning, despite all the discrimination!

No categorization can be done for the people who refuse to belief in death!
I push myself forward, towards something; I do not know, but I know I am making progress!

http://www.hightrustspeaking.com/1-day-public-speaking/

Getting something done, in a 'less usual way!'

I have finally acquired a non- academic skill that is so important in my life!

In fact, I simply did not know that there was another door waiting to be opened; rather than getting Certified in Engineering, Arts, Social Sciences.etc

I learnt from a speaker, how to say something smart!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i6stLO2fDNc

I liked to, so I did it. I did it the right way. Did you?

I made some articles and posted it to a reputable article- related website for publishing. Requested the support team to 'tell me if I made errors', and I learnt from there.

I read books on self motivation and improvement methodologies,

TO KEEP A MINSET OF LOOKING FORWARD AND  STOP CRYING ABOUT MY PAST!

One cloudy day I openned my mail box, and I got a package, this is sent from THE US!


I have finally been awarded by the strictly ruled; articles publishing website!

I do not have the CERTIFICATES to qualify for a BIG JOB, but I have my un-traditional studies 'ACADEMIC' ACHIEVEMENTS!

Do something not so traditional if you know IT yourself!

There is a door waiting to be opened. And the books made me
have the MINDSET for this personal ACHIEVEMENT!

Life can be made simple- with; SIMPLE-OLOGY.

"The miracle, or the power, that elevates the few


is to be found in their industry, application, and

perseverance under the prompting of a brave,

determined spirit."
 
After reading articles, surfed websites and made so many decisions in life: whether wrong or right, I do make:

SOME IMPROVEMENTS IN MY LIFE

If you are feeling down, and seeking some "push" in your life,

DO SOMETHING, OR KNOW SOMETHING; TO CHANGE THE CURRENT STATE OF MIND YOU'RE IN.

I have conquered some weakness in my IMAGE.

I NEEDED TO DO SO AS THIS WORLD IS JUDGEMENTAL.

What I saw was an image of myself, so I knew I had to make changes.






READ the contents and USE the information. APPLY IT!

THE DO, AND THE DO NOTS!

I have a negative mindset parent, who I will not specify; mother or father. The fact that I have survived cancer is a testimonial of my “non- dream stealing”, and positive mindset elder brother, his spouse and “THE OTHER PARENT”.
They stood by me and had faith in me, working and making my way into life, not so normal, but acceptable.

Ironically, I learnt much from the negative he or she; as that was the example of what to do, opposite;

“THE DO NOT(S)!”

Scarcity

Time is one limit we cannot predict how much every individual has. So time investment is vital in our lives. It is a form of sacrifice, as it has an “opportunity cost.”


So acknowledge the time spent on anything, reconcile periodically to know what is good or bad for you;

AND TO REPEAT THIS COURSE OF ACTION PLANS OR NOT?

Empowerment

You can empower yourself. Do something you feel right about. Desiring to do, being happy to do so; and be satisfied you’ve done it in the end. Somehow, you’ll do it well.

Nobody can set a limit for you, when you convince yourself to do something. Especially do it,

“YOUR WAY.”

Why TRY SO HARD? It is over.

I SAY NO! I have made myself  "comeback", from looking like a corpse. and now, I can see, I can read.

They said it is over, you must know that they said it, NOT YOU!

JUST EXPECTATIONS

All, I saw on people's faces were frowns and surprise. In fact they doubt the goodness of a situation as they have been through too many setbacks. Somehow they lost hope in almost anything, showing disinterest in everything.

I sincerely feel that the more we hold on to the grievances in the past, the less steps are made forward. I want to let go of the stugma, and change how people feel and think of the term: Cancer Survivability.

Why always feel that such a person is down and out, why does the massive improvement of technology only make the acceptance of SURVIVORS "still look bad?"

Why say that? It was supposed to be a good thing!

I got a second interview coming up, a potential employer, and am feeling right to go for "CHALLENGES", but my peers simply 'shower' me with negativity; like advise, inturn, instilled negativity; and fear into my mind!

Which is why, I somehow agree, a certain amount of ignorance is sometimes the better thing to have as I feel; "KNOWING TOO MUCH MAKE ME FEAR MORE".

As usual, the traditional mindset, with expectations, little thought of some altruism.

The alternative way around the OBSTACLE!

Starcraft II: Wings of Liberty

I like the word LIBERTY, gives me the feeling of freedom. moreover, I  do play PC games. Infact, I am recovering,slowly, but eventually from a depressive psychological illness, Low Self Esteem, (LSE).

At leas I feel less sadness and discrimination, with  'IN MY FACE' verbal assaults. So I have to find an alternative to keep myself going on with a schedule, like a balance of gaming and 'living'.

Be a light to others!

Upon "walking around so much", seen the patients in the ward, seen kids struggling and parents looking sunken, I thought, is it my turn to go?

Not really, I woke up in the end, many people say God woke me up from my coma, I rather think of it as a second chance to live. So live well. After all, it is not how long we live, but what we do in the life we have; now!

I understand that this fast paced society does not allow anybody to pause and think, reconsider, take time off to relax or even stop thinking of worrying situations; family or work.

I guess I needed to look at a nice thing. I smiled at people even though the environment I live in does not allow friendliness or chat; at work. That should be why I decided to resign rather than get FIRED; by the onslaught of comments and complains.

A few months ago, I stared at Mount Fuji, and awed at the size it was!
I rather recall this image as a good memory!